Should you stop reading here, just go ahead and order Annie F. Downs’ newest book. I am a huge fan of Annie F. Downs as you can read in my reviews of her past two books (read more). I love Annie’s works for her creativity, storytelling nature, sense of humor, admiration of Gilmore Girls, and love of glitter.
But this book. I mean I wasn’t ready.
Knowing Annie, I knew I would love it. I knew I would get caught up in her stories that are all too relatable then suddenly find myself wrecked by the profound truth she draws out of them. I knew I would relate, but I never imagined the depths.
God, are you always kind?
This is the question Annie F. Downs whispers in her heart amidst an extremely dark season. Interestingly enough, a very dark season that aligned perfectly with the timing of my deepest of griefs. Remember God walks readers through Annie F. Downs journey of wrestling, questioning, and looking around to find God in the darkest of places, seeking with her whole heart to continue to believe that He is good and kind.
And oh is it honest.
“I’m tired of cliches that are just tweetable enough for me to feel like I can’t be sad about what I’m feeling.”
Amidst her journey of wrestling and darkness, she describes a battle with depression, disordered eating, and singleness with such rawness.
I was able to grab an early access audio version of Remember God, which Annie herself read. And by read, I mean she wept through a majority of the pages, because this season of fighting to believe that God is kind, was just so real.
And I get it. I get it and I know it, and I lived it at the very same time Annie was. The darkness and emptiness she describes, the wondering if you can even get out of bed the next day, is not a battle Annie faced that I read about, but a real journey of my own, speaking Jesus’ name in the darkness just hoping to believe His name somehow still has power, even when I had been really let down.
Remember God reaches into such darkness and so blessedly meets its readers there without any cliches of “choosing” to cling to any Truth or joy, but real and honest wrestling, hoping, believing, and remembering who He is and who He will be.